When I was in my twenties just out from
Military College, I thought that being the best operator of all
systems and example in everything were only things that was needed to
be a leader in Signals. I hated every undefined feature in Signals procedures and
spend hours to write how things should be done. I pressed my
subordinates with both lengthy instructions and energetic behaviour. I
competed with my peers and superiors in being most skillful, strong
and strict young officer in the field of Signals business.
Up to a certain level everything went well.
Conscripts followed my instructions, sometimes out of fear towards my
temper and overarching skills and sometimes just to get things over
with and return back to barracks. My peers did not like me because of
constant competition and I did not gain any close friendship with
them. My superiors either disliked me and turned their attention
somewhere else or trusted me and gave freedom of operation.
I felt left alone with my role of being the best.
Gradually I changed my behaviour to be more supportive towards my
peers. I shared my work with them and helped them in their problems.
I teamed up with some really good fellows to study together and we
all were successfully passed in entry exams to General Staff College.
I learned that sharing will enable collegial support and that will
get you further than selfish hoarding of information and constant
comparison of your skills and capabilities.
Later I realized that I had been risen to behave like
that. The whole education system was driven by individual values and
competition was constant as we were set in order of superiority every
time in exams and tests. Only in conscript training some credit was
gained by team, when we together were able to ski through dark
forest, settle a camp and counter enemy attack just before sun
rise. Even that was ruined, when excess holidays were given on basis
of individual success in shooting, running or exams. Team sociology
was educated in Military College only in theory when
competition between cadets was constant and only sanctions would have
been addressed in team basis. After graduation I was given a task to
compose integrated teams out of heterogeneous conscripts in my
responsibility. I did not have any practical experience on that but
taking them out in the woods and giving them challenges that they
together were able to overcome. My superior skills and using them to
humiliate my conscripts or peers were only counterproductive.
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